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I rarely watch the doom and gloom tv news,I stopped reading the West Australian newspaper,it has become more like a British tabloid and is so biased,needs some competition.I can keep up with current affairs elsewhere,Telstra news for example.In this way I can pick and choose my intake, much the same as can be done with Bigpond blogs and posts.

I feel I'm needing to work harder these days to find something light, bright,and cheery,and positive,although it does exist there amongst the negative stuff.Notwithstanding my acceptance,ackowledgement and understanding of the  need for every individual to self expression,sharing,and the getting things of their chests etc, I  feel the ratio  of the negative to the positives to be about right,although finely balanced at around 50/50.I'm wondering what will happen when that bright shining light of this site transfers their account elsewhere,a tipping of the scales? Maybe,then again, maybe not.Being an optimist in the main,I believe in a "cometh the hour,cometh the man/woman".We will get a replacement to fill the void left by Grotty.  

Yesterday while our mighty host was experiencing technical issues, I was attending a Parkinson's Condition seminar.During a break in preceedings,a group of gentlemen ventured up to the front and presented Parkinson's WA with a cheque.This greatfully received and accepted offering was to the value of  $3000, and was indeed vouchsafed to be in order and given in good faith.A magnificent gesture.

These most distinguished looking gentlemen,it came to pass, and was later revealed, were acting for,with and on the behalf a Perth Freemasons lodge.

You see,sometimes good things can happen,and they do.What goes around comes around,good and bad,it is a lore of life,I believe.

Hello Douga,allow me to introduce myself,my name is Bojangles Blue, which rhimes with Stewart,my real name :-) 
     Travelling with parkinson's condition I do not adhere to any religeous doctrine or beliefs,having given all that away.In no way do I wish to enter any religeous debate.It is with my interest in people and their various life styles,personalities,characters and their writings,together with the multitude of topics,yours included, that I observe the Telstra Bigbog facility,taking an objective view.

     Being an observer of people for no short time,one can get a feel of what is appertaining,hearing/seeing what  is being said and most importantly,that which is not being said.
     In the words of an old Beatles song,first line of Elinor Rigby- 'AAh,look at all the lonely people'.There are so many,let me tell you.People can and do all sorts of things to attract attention.
It can clearly be seen there are issues needing to be addressed.
     For myself,I adopt the stance of,rather be liked than right,rather be loved than right.
It is from my desire to help that I write.I thank you for your time in reading this missive.

I would have rather entered a comment but was unable to.

Bojangles Blue-Stewart.

Permit me to open dialogue Douga.

I'm wondering as to the need to write in such a manner?It interests me.

 I'm giving you the benefit of the doubt.

It sure is stirring things up and attracting attention?

THE MAN IN ME,THE MAN I AM.
(Modus Vevendi). 

PARKINSON'S DISEASE- parkinson's condition(pc).
I do not like the term disease,
it does not sit right with me.                  

END OF DOSE FAILURE - end of dose rest(EODR),
recharge,recover, re-create and refresh.

OFF TIME - enforced time out,go to hell and regroup,     
resiliance,bounce back.Get on with life,with living.

ON TIME - windows of benefit/opportunitys(WOBOS),             
I make full use of these beautiful precious periods,                                     
I squeeze every minute out of them.

Motivation - put myself in the mood.
Formula - motivation-mood-mode-momentum,
                  in that order.
                  motivation + mood = mode
                  motivation + mood + mode = momentum.

My formula for getting things done,

Imagine,visualise,goal setting,planning,pro-action,
and action.Monitor,adjust and upgrade accordingly,                                                    
and still take time out to smell the roses.     

I acknowledge,and I am aware that,
I cannot feel good all day every day.
I did'nt even when I was in my prime.                                 
No one scores ten out of ten 100% of the time.
Only the mediocre are ever at their best.

Self pity - been there done that,it doesn't work.
I've complained,moaned and lamented too.                                        
The worst that can happen to me has already happened.                           
I'm freed up,released,I'm free.I'm a free thinker,                                       
and I make no appologies for that.                                                              
I can put up and shut up,
I endure according to temperament.

Vocabulary and diction-I have strong North of England,                         
English accent, and speak in the vernacular.                                              
I make no appologies for that either.

Dreams - I have experienced hallucinations only
occassionly,I have vivid crazy dreams,they are
only in my head and gone the next day,forgotten.
Pride - I can have my pride,and swallow it too,
it's not poison.                    

Place of abode - Australia,I love this country.
Education - school of hard knocks,I majored.                                                                     I learn something new everyday.

Motivation - I'm self motivated,
I pass it on to others, it's free.
Assertiveness - I'm assertive,
I can say no and not feel guilty.                 
I feel no need to justify myself,unless I choose,
notwithstanding,in any given situation one
must act accordingly and do what is necessary.

Commitment - I think, feel, and believe that with
whatever skills, knowledge,and knowhow I possess,
couple this with 100% + effort,
I will be twice the man I am.                                                                     
I have an 'I can do' attitude,and an optimistic outlook.    
Serves no purpose to be otherwise.
I know why a begger won't thank you and,
why an unemployed man has no energy.

Back up - no one does it on there own.                                                    
I have total trust and confidence in my neurologist,
I think he's the best.
I feel the same about my Parkinson's Nurse Specialist.
She is the best.
This is a formidable team and I'm part of it,
I owe it to them and myself to play my part.                                              
I participate fully in my local parkinson's
Young Onset Support Group,(YOGS)                      
we draw strengh from each other.
Parkinson's WA Inc,
they are there for me,and me for them.

I travel with the erratic nature of pc,                                    
I live with the uncertainty,as with life in general.                                        
I fight and deal with it by managing it better,                         
maintaining a winning position.                                                                  
I'm becoming more infomed,I take onboard what
my clinicians tell me.

Control - I am well informed of the symtoms
and nature of pc.
I'm in control,self control,empowered,
supreme self control,self possession,
legendary self possession.

Fatigue - I can feel tired and drive myself,
or stop to rest.                                           
Some days I feel good,others I feel better.

Respect - I do not give pc too much respect,
indeed I give it no respect at all,does not deserve any.
I don't even give it capital letters,imposter that it is.
One has to earn it to deserve it,
and pc has fallen well short.                                                                                                                  

Give in to pc - I'm well aware of the progressive
nature of pc.
I am flexible,I can adapt.
Give in,not yet,no white flag.
There's plenty of me left,and plenty left in me.

Love - it's mine to give,and I give it to whomever
I choose.It's free too.
Self love - I like myself,I like being me.I do not feel
that is being selfish or self centered,indeed no,
I cannot love anyone unless I love myself.

Responsibility - self responsibiliy,
I am responsible for how I feel,this is governed by
my thoughts,what and how I think,my thinking.
Therefore I make sure they are positive and rational.
I jettison all negetive thought and thinking,and switch
off my negitive chatter box, it serves no good purpose. 

Self doubts - I take no cognisance of my self doubts and
fears, sometimes I kid myself.         
They are not real, and sometimes, I wonder.
I feel the fear and do it anyway,and the fear dissipates.                           

Just do it and do it now.
I live in the moment,in the now,                                                                
the only time there is, the only time I have.                                                 
We're all equal in this respect.
The time is now, and now is the time.
There are sixty minutes in my hour,
same as in everyone's.
The present is that moment of time, it takes the future,
to slip into the past,
and there is no guarantee of tomorrow.
Today is the tomorrow I worried about yesterday,
I'm still here, and I'm OK,even better.                                                         
I'm managing well,there are areas where I'm excelling.                             
I've no time to lose,only time to win.

Self expectancy - I expect nothing from anyone
and much from myself.
Talk the talk and walk the walk, - I talk my self talk,
and walk my self walk, sometimes I shuffle.                                                                                
There is no virtue in timidity.
Risks - risk taking.
Taking risks is less risky than not taking risks.                
I want,I do,I dare,I risk,I am.                                        
No one can doubt my courage,only me.

Giving - I endeavour to give people a hand up rather
 than a hand out.The most valuable gift I can give
anyone is my time,a listening ear and all that goes
with it,and a kick up the backside when warranted,
myself too.
Forgiving - sometimes I get it all wrong,mess up,
I forgive others,I can forgive myself.

I like people,a people person,
I can be alone and not feel lonely.

Thoughts and feelings - I'm responsible for my own.
As thoughts precede, and create feelings,I do not feel
responsible for other people's thoughts and thinking ,
that is their stuff,and I'm certainly not responsible
for their feelings.I respect and can understand their
feelings,be a good listener and hear what is not being
said,I and can empathise and sympathise.
I'm human,with flaws and shortcomings like the rest
of humanity.I'm not perfect.
I cannot please everyone,least I end up pleasing no one.

I read somewhere to believe in God, your family,
and yourself, in that order.The first two do not apply.
I think, feel, and believe my first duty is to myself,
I cannot help others if not myself.

Self esteem - mine's high and healthy,
I work on it, ongoing.
Self respect - I have tremendous self respect,                                                                      
I take good care of myself,
I do not allow necessities to become luxuries.
Self image - good positive self image,good sense of self.                                                  
Clean cut,well presented.                                                        

I can reach for the sky,and I might just touch the stars.                       
Sometimes good things can happen,and they do.
What goes around comes around,good and bad,
it is a lore of life.
Who knows what the future holds.
I cannot tell,and thank goodness for that.
I would not have wanted to know my future
a few year ago.

Dependency - disability support pension,
it does not sit well with me,alas.  
I am fortunate I live in a country that can do this.
I do not feel the world owes me living.

Sympathy - I do not feel sorry for myself,                                                                           
I do not want anyone to feel sorry for me,                                                    
I do not  wrap myself up in cotton wool.
Product - I am a product of my life and times,
situations, issues,and circumstances,
I do not feel a I am a victim.
I am self reliant.I can accept help,I can ask for help.

I have interests,hobbies,and pursuits.
I do what I do because I want to,for an audience of one.
I'm quite willing to share,I ask for no applause.   
Self praise,I can pat myself on the back,
every good boy deserves favour.

I wear my heart on my sleeve,
I can keep my own councel.

Humour - I do not take myself so serious,
I can take a joke.I have a ready smile,
I can laugh easly and spontaneously,loud and heartily.
I like social banter.A love a good belly laugh.
Humour,it can break the ice,bring people together,
and heal the body and soul.
I can laugh at myself,often do.

Give in to pc - repeat,not yet.
A man is only beaten when he walks out of the arena.                            
There is no white flag in my armoury.
I let put downs and negativity just bounce off me,
having on affect at all.
Negativity will not pull me through,
it is a drain on my energy.       
I've no time for negative and defeatist talk.                                                
I rarely watch the tv news,
I can keep up with current afairs without tv.
I am a wholly total positive person in attitude,
thoughts and deeds,       
I can get a positive out of most things.

I have let go of what I had become.I have moved on.                     
I'm growing,glowing,showing,shining,and excelling.
I leave perfection to others.                                                                        
I'll settle for being good to excellent any time.
Working class hero, - if you want to be a hero,
don't follow me.

Too much,too many -
I've had many dark nights of the soul,
I have gone down deep within myself,
explored the frontiers of my mind,my soul,
resurfaced,and found myself secure.

I am unique,I'm not part of a critical mass.
I'm the best at being me.I like being me.
I am Stewart, - ALIVE- O,  ALIVE - ALIVE - ALIVE- O,
and happy to be,and happy to be me.

My spirit still sings.     

These are the terms I choose to live my life.
                                                      Circa 2007.
 

SUMMARY:

FORWARD,AHEAD,without Marx or Jesus.
This is a brand new day,I will rejoice and excel in it,
I will not be found wanting,
I'll not die wondering,
I have not given in,
parkinson's got me?  No, I've got, it, - I'm in control.
parkinson's condition?  imposter, I spit in the face.

Don't cry for me Argentina,
I've crossed the Rubicon,
I'm not backing out,
I accept the challenge.
THE MAN I AM,THE MAN IN ME.

No apologies.      
Becoming Stronger.

I AM ,STEWART  (BOJANGLES).     (Copyright 2007)